turning over a new leaf? starting afresh?

i guess either of these phrases work in my life right now.

alliedearest posted a blog about devotion. and i'm right there with her. i have all of these great ideas, and they mostly just fall through, and i end reading my bible and praying no more than i talk to someone weekly. (sad but true).

i'm hoping this fact ceases to make me feel guilty or that i do it out of compulsion, but that it can morph into a time that i look forward to fondly. time with a dear friend.

at any rate, i'm quite nervous about starting tomorrow. and i'm even more nervous about my last medical board on tuesday.

i really would just like it to be friday afternoon already. i'd feel a lot better.

hmm. i feel like all of my feelings have been poured out into a jar. or down a disposal. and all that is left is the awareness that i feel a bit hollow.

2008, i'm going to need you to deliver. you gave me hope at the start, kicked me when i was down, and then picked me up and dusted me off (i'm still smarting from the fall). please don't do anything mean again.

thank you.