falling in love at a coffeeshop

or a library, or a bookstore has always kind of been a dream of mine.

my best friend of 20 years is engaged as of sunday night.

my best guy friend started dating, proposed to, and then married at warp speed earlier this year.

i feel like i stuck in concrete and that all of these people are running circles around me.

love.

freaking everywhere.
everyone.

i tell you.

no, not everywhere and everyone i know. but it sure feels like it.

i was reading paul's blog about an end of the world crush.

i don't have one.

i have no crush.

if the world was ending there would honestly be no guy to call.

i don't know what that even means.

this is not a blog trying to get people to tell me how timing is everything, blah blah, universal truths, blah blah.

this is just me sorting things out a bit.

time is on my side i'm quite sure.

but i do wonder. occasionally.

life feels like one gigantic joke on me right now. i'm on the verge of crying and laughing simultaneously.