am i some sort of flake magnet?

okay i should be studying for my midterm tomorrow.

but i'm in need of catharsis, so i'm going to indulge briefly.

sometimes i believe that i have a sign on my head that says in bold and underlined letters:

come all ye that are flakes. come one and all people who like friendship on their own terms. who are more self-absorbed than selfless. who relish in self-pity before carrying the burden of others.

now that i've made my readers paranoid.....don't worry it isn't any of you.....i just want to say, how does this happen to me?

for exactly, in 2 consecutive years i've managed to have the most bizarre experiences with people.
i mean, who doesn't return calls when you call them? i mean, who actively avoids someone who has done absolutely nothing but be their champion and stand in the corner when other people had their opinions (not necessarily positive of them).

i wonder if i'm supposed to learn some abstract rule on longsuffering through this? i mean the ball is out of my court and i know this. but it just baffles me.

i try to act like a tough cookie, but i do have a heart. i do have feelings. no one likes being disregarded or taken for granted. no one likes being avoided and ignored. no one.

and yes, maybe this was only for a season. and maybe i'm better off. who knows. but it's just not an ideal situation.

we might as will be strangers i guess.